To Tube or not To Tube, the real question

To Tube or Not To Tube...

A question that has been eating at me for a really long time.

I think that many of us have been wondering if living a life on the YouTube screen is one that we would want. 
I mean, "Everyone is doing it! Right?".

Well, no...not everyone is doing it...but a lot are. And though a lot are, not everyone should.

I, myself, love watching things that are engaging and inspiring, educational and further my knowledge. I have spent countless hours watching videos on YouTube and other resources that have helped me fix my sewing machine, taught me a painting skill, helped me with my daughters math homework, and even helped me numb out my brain with silly and funny pet videos after a busy day.

There is no denying that YouTubers have fulfilled the lives of many people.

I alway have wanted to live a life that was one that could engage others, inspire others, educate others and help others further their knowledge for a wonderful and fruitful future. But, the questions of how (how do I do this: youtube?) what (What subjects are needed to be covered? What tools do I need to do it?) and when (when should I start? when will I be able to film, interview, and edit? when should I promote?etc.)

The "How" question is a full one and it can be difficult when I think about it. I tend to think that I will only be a 'good youtuber' when I have all the tools and equipment that everyone else uses or says you need...
But in reality, I just need to do it.

The "What" question...well, that one is hard. Nowadays it seems that there is already so many people tackling the subjects that I already want to do. For a long time I wanted to do art tutorials, but when I 'Googled' the subject I found THOUSANDS!!! 
When I saw that there was such a plethora of art tutorials on the web, self-doubt was a huge thing for me.

Who is going to watch my videos? I'm a self-taught artist, not a highly educated one.

So I stopped making videos. 
I didn't want to be disappointed.
I didn't want to fail.

But in not doing any, I failed already.

Time has gone by and I keep going back to the dream of not just creating videos, but of sharing my life in a dream-fueled experience.
I long to live a life that is recorded and can inspire others to pursue their dreams no matter what, to fail and not be afraid to fail.

Now I am writing lists of what I want to do (some of them are dreams that seem far fetched) and some of the things may never come to be, but if I can dream it, it might be possible.
 


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